Say goodbye to the beard guy
This is just some shitty motivational thing I wrote myself two seconds ago to push me to write and stop letting the malingering shittiness of myself keep me from telling all the stories in my head, and reminding myself I’m not awful.
Sometimes I write without writing, letting my brain run down narrative threads of far off movies, stories, anything to keep myself preoccupied and unfocused on how fucking horrifying life is, I was, I am.
The stories and thoughts weave together like a multitude of voices, from different mes from different points in the timeline. It’s only now I see that these are all me, all the time, and it’s up to me to control this.
There’s Me, the fuck-up who had a crush on every woman and could never express it properly which led him to anger and frustration that never worked and then led him to lashing out at himself and hating himself, the one who wrecked more than one relationship in the nascent stage and at least one relationship more than once. These stories come from a simple place, simply put, to fuck. When these stories crop up I do my best to nip them in the bud but they crop in the weirdest way: a woman exploring her sexuality by fucking everyone she can becomes a screed on how male gaze corrupts female sexuality. It never works but it works for me I don’t know just go with this.
There’s Me, the one who wants to help by being the center point of every conversation. I don’t know where I was going with this.
And then there’s the Me that’s me now, at this moment, contending with how fucking stupid I can be and how I need to just write. I want to take in everyone’s stories, to listen, I do. I do this. But I need to tell stories. It’s not helping anyone to not tell a story.
So that’s what I’m going to do, soon, eventually, someday, tomorrow maybe, is tell a story.
Anonymous asked: If you think Dwayne McDuffie would have had a problem with Al Ewing writing a team like Mighty Avengers, then you don't know shit about McDuffie and you should stop putting words in his mouth.
You’re right, I don’t, but I didn’t say he’d have a problem with Ewing writing it, but that (seeing as the book was framed by Brevoort as an idea he thought would make McDuffie happy) he’d probably be happier if a black writer or a black artist was making money off of it.
Just re-read what I said, it’s all there.
Anonymous asked: Mighty Avengers being written by a white writer isn't "black face" that's a ridiculous thing to say. More importantly, Al Ewing was the one who pitched the line up for Mighty Avengers, they book wouldn't exist without him, it would have been a dick move to have someone else write it.
I didn’t say it was blackface, re-read it.
If he had pitched it that’s fine whatever but that’s not what the marketing/Brevoort’s interviews about it made it seem like.
This post is culled together from a rant I had on twitter a month ago, before a Big discussion of Racism in comics happened this weekend. I was going to change some of what I said to reflect that but there’s a lot of people saying it better than I ever could. So go read Darryl Ayo on the subject, David Brothers on the subject, and Zainab Akhtar on racism [storify is being a dick and wouldn’t let me make those tweets one post] and any countless other people discussing this far better than I ever could.
Library haul this week is my largest, page count wise. #books #reading #library