I’ve never felt actually numb due to depression, until today.
Even when I was at my worst low in college I at least felt something. Right now it’s just like I’m floating through life.
I’ve had to run to the bathroom every half hour or so at work to make sure I don’t puke from anxiety.
I’m going to have to actually go to therapy to deal with this, aren’t i? Like my romantic notion of taking pills and time off work to fix myself isn’t going to work, is it? Ugh.
THIS IS IMPORTANT!
Yesterday, I went to Disneyland. Apparently, at their Innovations building, there is a HUGE Avengers exhibit, complete with appearances by Captain America and Thor. Naturally, I ran screaming into said building, camera at the ready. After falling on the ground in front of the array of Iron Man suits and bursting into tears at the Steve Rogers exhibit (exactly like the Smithsonian one in TWS) I got in line to meet the Star-Spangled Man. (The workers were all awesome, they loved that I was such a nerd and so unbelievably excited to meet the Captain.)
My purse has a large Doctor Who pin on it, (not pictured) and the camera man for Steve pointed at it, looked at Cap, and was like “Look at this, it says something about she’s a Doctor?” and Cap points at it and goes "Oh, that looks like a blue police box!" so I said, (I was speechless guys I literally am such a dweeb) "It is." and he said "When I was in England doing an Op in 1942, I was stuck in a burning building and a man named John Smith pulled me out of the building, and then ran into a blue police box just like that and disappeared. Do you know if this has anything to do with that?"
I DON’T EVEN REMEMBER WHAT I SAID IN RESPONSE. YOU GUYS. THE CAPTAIN AMERICA AT DISNEYLAND WATCHES DOCTOR WHO. HARDCORE REFERENCED DOCTOR WHO. KNEW ABOUT THE WHOLE JOHN SMITH ALIAS THING. CAPTAIN AMERICA WATCHES DOCTOR WHO. I AM IN TEARS REMEMBERING ALL OF THIS.
anyways, we took pictures, i cried when i walked out, thought you all ought to know. the end.
This dude knows his stuff. He’s the same Cap that I saw during my bachelorette party. When I gave him a drawing as a gift for his upcoming July 4th ‘birthday’, I mentioned I thought he would appreciate it because I knew he had gone to art school before the war. He GRINNED so big and said "Wow, no one ever remembers that!"
He also made me punch his shield because I had my Winter Soldier jacket on.
Disney, KEEP HIM, HE’S PERFECT
Stroke my ego